Do doggies dream of of chasing sheep?

What I thought was my one dog whining to get out ended up being my other doggie having a dream. I remember a conversation my eighth grade english honors class had about animals having souls. Our teacher swears up and down that it is not possible for animals to have souls. Watching a doggie dream leads me to believe that they have a soul. I have no factual proof for this, and once again I am too lazy to look up research via google to prove my theory correct.

Tech is coming home in t-14 hours and counting. wOOt! Kinda miss the little bugger. His presentation went well and he supposedly picked up a spiffy Harley Davidson--Helsinki t-shirt for me. BTW, to my bro and sis-in-law, we are going to use the gift certificate to Beartooth HD to purchase a uber spiffy clock for our new and improved downstairs wall.

In his absence and in regard my propensity not to cook while he is gone, I took advantage of a gift certificate I had won and have been feeding myself on a weeks worth of Seattle Sutton's meals. For being premade meals, they are pretty tasty. It is a bit on the too healthy side, but I am warming up to that. Still wont eat tomatoes and zucchini though. There are some foods that I just do not like. If I ever had the need to go on a major diet overhaul or Tech is gone for an extended period of time or if I were a single gal, I would get this. Beats a frozen dinner hands down.

Well, Van Helsing is about over, so I am going to finish watching that and go to bed. Night all~

Whats it like for Tech to be gone?

Weird.
Lonely.
Busy.
Interesting.
Frustrating.
Fortunate.

Yup, those work. I would like to elaborate more, but alas I am lacking the ability to ramble at length tonight. Its the paint fumes (yup, still painting).

He will be home in a day and a half. wOOt! Down side, I can no longer watch the chick flicks that I have been watching while he has been gone but I am now caught up so I should be good until his next trip. The week has gone fast.

I just glanced at the time and realized my butt needs to get to bed. More later. Happy Wednesday!

Welcome Back

So it is 1:16 in the morning on May 4th and I am wide awake, so I thought this would be a good time to start blogging again. Why now? Well, things are hopefully going to start changing around here and I wanna write about it. That and well, Tech is out of town for the next week, so I have some time on my hands.

How has everyone been? April in Minnesota I gotta tell you for the most part, save a highlight here or there pretty much sucked. Why? Still not done with the house and the weather was crap. It snowed the weekend we were supposed to drive to my home on the range to be Godparents for my new 'phew. It was so bad we couldnt get past St Cloud. I was pissed about that. It snowed last weekend as well--its supposed to be in the freaking 60's and it was snowing. And I have heard from more than one weatherman that this winter--which I deem crappola--is supposed to be "normal" for Minnesota. Unless the gods shine down on Tech and I for the next 30 years or so with good weather, I need to find a way to get through these "normal" winters with my sanity intact. Tess sucked it did. Cept for the weekend G and her niece were here--that was way hella fun. A bright light in an otherwise bleak wintery (which should have been spring) mess they call April.

Now it is May and it is starting to look better. Things are blooming (including my allergies to some sort of indigenous tree in Minnesota), the pond is melted, baseball season has started and it is above freezing. Tonight after I dropped Tech off at the airport so he can go to Finland (he is going to Helsinki to present a paper that he wrote at a computer conference--pretty spiffy, huh?) I played a little poker and I made it to a final qualifier to the WSOP. I win that tourney I am now entered in, I could be going to Vegas to play in the big one. Wouldn't that be way hella cool? I have been getting good cards lately and have been playing more aggressive which has upped my winning and winnings. Won $216 (and first place) in a 4.40 sit and go (180 players) and the other night took second (and $30) in a 45 person sit and go. The tourney I played in tonight to qualify had about 1550 people in it. I held 1st for a while until I realized we were really close in having the top 50 qualify, so I went on J Dubs philosophy of dont play anything 'cause you will make the finals (which was hard to do, because I did have some very playable hands) and ended up in about eighth to make that finals tourney. Again, way, way, way hella cool to win that tourney and go to Vegas to play in the big one. I will give it my best. And it would be free!
Anywho, while Tech is gone I need to paint and generally spiff up the house. I also plan on working on me while Tech is gone. Clean up some eating, work on some exercise, and try some new skin care stuff (because age changes things and right now it is kinda pissing me off). For those who know me and know how horrible I am with chewing my nails, I have managed to not chew them for about a month or more (maybe six weeks?), so I am on a good start with this whole bad habit thing. Now I just need to convince myself that I need to go to bed at a decent hour while Tech is gone and actually sleep in my bed rather than on the couch, I will have hit the trifecta for taking care of me. Its the little things in life...
Well its almost two AM and I better get my be-hind to bed. Hope y'all have had a good weekend and I will let you know how life goes as it goes.
Peace.

One more post for Jewel

To pass my day at work (because I just love what I do *note sarcasm*) I go to a website with theatre folks that I know who pass the day talking about theatre and life. One question was posed today that asked, "What are some of the things you feel you need to achieve or get past or reach, that would make you REALLY happy?"
One fellow posted this as an answer...

Happiness doesn't exist on the far side of distant mountains. It is within you, yourself. Not you, however, sitting in idle passivity. It is to be found in the vibrant dynamism of your own life as you struggle to challenge and overcome one obstacle after another, as you clamber up a perilous ridge in pursuit of that which lies beyond.
~Words of Wisdom by Buddist Philosopher Daisaku Ikeda

I forget this notion far to often. I make my own happiness, by taking the lemon to lemonade approach. Its all in me, up to me, no one else as I pursue this thing called life.

Anywho, Jewel, I think you like Buddist sayings and I thought about your road you have traveled. I know its been a rough one as of late, but I believe in you and wish you nothing but happiness.

Ok, now I blog not for a while again. Carry on my wayward son.

So heres the deal, yo

I have been rather remiss on blogging since we moved into the new house. I have many many reasons for that. 1. Not enough time. 2. This winter has been pissing me off to the point of having lack of motivation to do ANYTHING (and yes, even though the calendar says its spring, we still have snow and they are calling for more on Thursday. Oh the joy of it all.) 3. I really dont want to bore y'all with the fact that all I have been doing on the remodel has been painting...and painting...oh, and did I mention painting? Yeah, the girl who doesnt like painting has ended up doing most of it because she is no where near handy enough to put up stuff. 4. Been actually doing things--Funeral, Bon Jovi concert, WSOP qualifer, board meetings, committee meetings, and it seems that there has been other stuff going on as well, but my addled brain isnt remembering. And there is much more coming up in the month of April--two weekends already planned out plus we STILL need to do taxes. Yeah, not on the ball this year for those. Plus, we start using our Twin tickets we purchased for this year. And on, and on...

So, based on my laziness, continued bad weather and stuff to do, the drought of the blog will probably continue. You have been warned (*cough* Hemp *cough*) so dont go complaining if you havent seen posts on a regular basis. Besides, all three of you have much better things to do! :D

Peace out, I will blog when I get a chance or if it moves me. Until then, just assume I am at a show, meeting, work or working on the house. Such is my life for the next month or two.

Happy Tuesday~

Golf and Poker are a lot alike

I have played both games. And let me tell you, for me they are too much alike. Why? Because if you think too much for both, its going to mess your game up. Ugh.

I have always been a person that can pick up something rather easily. I get the basics right away (except for Pinchole. That game is just...weird). Then I start to ask questions and get tips from people and then I start thinking about things too much and it all goes to hell. I should learn that I just have beginners luck and walk away rather than think I can actually do this and be disappointed in it after working on it more. lol!

I wish I had the patience to be a master of something. I really dont have that in me. I am the type that likes to experience a lot of different things rather than concentrate on on thing and do it well. I was always a little envious of my older brothers and sister that have things they are quite good at or love to do. I feel like I dont have that. Dont get me wrong, I could probably get there, I just dont have the patience to stick with something long enough to get to master level. Rolling stone I am.

I dont think that is a bad thing either. I think it gives me a wider view of the world (though my world is still pretty small, but still I have done a lot more than most). But if I were to dream, I wish I had a god given talent that just stands out. And I got nothin' :D

OK, enough pondering for the evening, I need to get my arse to bed. Night all.

It was bound to happen

This is my first night of not being able to sleep in the new house. I am chocking this one up to the weather change. Seems that the period between winter and spring I have to readjust sleeping wear and accoutraments (ie blankets, etc) to deal with the too hot, too cold scenario that happens this time of year. Its either that or my body wasnt used to me going to bed so early and it decided I needed to wake up at 12:30 to make up for it. Bummed I am as our new bed just rocks and I have always had a full night sleep in it since the start.
Also, I cant get a Daughtry song out of my head. Not that I dont mind Daughtry, its just so LOUD in my brain--quiet down up there!

Random thoughts blog, here goes:

A friend of mine is coming up from Chicago to see Bon Jovi in concert next week. Saves tech from the misery of a ton of cougars belting out Bon Jovi tunes and it will be nice to see her again.

Kiddie props to my 'phew who had his burfday. Holy cow, where does the time go?!

Next week is hella busy: Wednesday night, Bon Jovi. Thursday night, marketing meeting. Friday night, WSOP qualifier. Saturday, 1 year anniversary and potential day two of qualifying. Sunday, easter. Whew--I havent had a schedule that packed in YEARS. I try not to schedule more than max two things going on during a week in the evening. I love me my down time (though down time has included much remodel work in the past two weeks--we are getting there!)

Note to self: contact school to see if you can teach next quarter. mama needs to pay for remodeling.

Upside of snow, it hides the doggie poo. Down side of snow, it melts and shows the doggie poo. Guess what we are cleaning up this weekend.

Still need to do taxes. Crap. At least we bought turbo tax. And that is a deduction.

Every night I look on Craigslist for the perfect chairs for three rooms. Man, people own crap and think they can get money for it.

Note to self: get your crap on Craigslist so you can get more money to pay for said chairs.

OK, I am going to get a snackie, go pottie and try this sleepie thing once again. Good night y'all.

The realization

I was walking the skyways today during a break and it dawned on me that I still have over 30 years before the government says I am old enough to get benefits and retire. Good lord, thats a long f'ing time. I really need something that I enjoy doing or this is going to be a very long 30 + years...
I have started this week thinking about needing a break. I get three weeks of vacation every year and in the past two years, it seems as if I never used any of it (save for the wedding and still that was a pretty busy time). I used to take a week off of work and do nothing. I miss that. Europeans take a month of at a time, why the hell cant we do that? It is ridiculous that we have to work 24-7. The world will survive if things are a little late. Anywho, back to my original thought...I am at the point of not caring about work. When I get that way, its not pretty. I sit and try to do work and its like "why am I doing this? I could give a rats butt if so-and-so has this issue, they can figure it out on their own." Ooooo, portana, not a good way to be.

Why is it all the things that I want to do for a living either a far flung idea or doesnt pay near enough? Y'all have heard this from me far too many times. I will shut up now. I just need to deal and get to the point where I can do what I want to do. Its just going to take some time and to quote Queen, "I want it all, and I want it now." The two notions are not compatible.

Sorry for the disjoint and frassy blog. There are days that I struggle for feeling complete and fulfilled. I guess today it was a pretty powerful feeling. I am so close, what will it take to get me there? That is the $100000 question.